Where am I?

Ok, I feel stuck.

Not literally stuck like "My car is stuck in the mud" but stuck like I am walking along only to realize that this path doesn't really go anywhere. And then I look around and there's nothing but grayness all around me, no color, no trees, just "blah". And I'm going no where. I spend all day trying to get somewhere and just go in circles. But then I get home and it's like I have (what seems like) 12 minutes to do everything I have been dreaming of getting done, but there's never enough time. And the timer goes off after the 12 minutes is over to tell me "it's time to get ready to go back to purgatory."

I feel stuck.

First, you can probably guess I am feeling this way about my job. Let me clarify, I do not have an awful job! It is very secure, there is a lot of opportunity there, and the people are very friendly. I even have a very nice boss. The thing is, the work that I actually DO pins me to my computer the entire 8 hours I am clocked in. It is very monotonous and never exciting, extremely predictable and flat out boring. Yet what I do is vital to the entire company. So, why am I even talking about this? I don't know, maybe I feel like talking about it will make me feel better, maybe I am hoping that someone will come along and say "You're in luck! I happen to have an opening for your dream job and there's NO INTERVIEW!"........maybe I'm just whining. I just wonder if anyone else has felt this way.

I enjoy being able to help people in a way where I can see it happening and can see the result. I cannot see myself helping anyone there considering that I never see anyone while I'm there. At the branches, you could help people all day long, but the branch had it's down side too. (as does every job) Everybody was in everyone elses business and it caused drama a lot, and I always like everyone to be happy all the time. It was hard for me. On the other hand, your days would fly by, and even if they were slow, at least you had down time. There is never any down time in my job. There's always work to do. In fact, there's so much work, they make you take breaks for you to get away for 10 minutes. You would think that with all that work time would fly by....but you try sitting at your desk looking at page after page on your screen typing in account numbers and going to the next page to do the same thing over and over and over....

I don't guess I even know where I'm going with this. All I know is that I feel frustrated and stuck. It is a good job for me to have and it has been good for the family (no working saturdays, no hour long commutes, more money) but it's still hard to do it. I am going to school in order to have an opportinuty to do something I enjoy, but I am crawling at a snail's pace with one or two classes each semester. I feel like I'll never be close to graduating.

Daniel and I have talked about it and he understands how I feel. We're just in a weird place right now and there doesn't seem to be anything I can do to change it. I am trying to be positive but with all the negativity I encounter every day (everywhere) it makes it mind numbing. I try to think of the reason why things are like this. There always seems to be a reason for things. God, can you maybe let me in on the reason? I just need to know that there IS a reason...please? Maybe? Just tell me something like "This is preparing you for the best job ever, so you will appreciate what you have when you have good things" or maybe "This is going to teach you how to deal with the mediocre" or even "This job will help you when you interview for a position when you're 43 years old." Something!!

After thinking on these things, I went to (in my opinion) one of the best books of the Bible: James. Here is what I found and it seems to fit.


James 1

2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4 Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6 But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8 he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.


I guess I do need to take this to heart more.

Thank you! / I'm sorry

HOORAY!!! I do have readers! Thank you so much for reading AND posting comments!! I'm sorry that I had no idea anyone made comments... I am used to getting email notifications when people write on my wall or send me messages or comment on Facebook, so I don't get any on here therefore I have to go in and check to see if anyone posts comments. (There may be a way to set that up, but I haven't figured it out yet.)

As you can see I have taken your helpful advice and made some changes to my blog. Thank you! It was very easy to do once I figured it out. Pretty awesome.

Random: When I was in college I found a few websites here and there that I bookmarked on my computer. Now that I use Daniel's computer all the time, I never get on mine so I don't see those bookmarked websites. Well, I got on my computer tonight and took a trip down memory lane to find a pretty cool site! I thought I would share it for fun.

Uncommon Goods http://www.uncommongoods.com/

Anniversary, Cookouts and Fireworks

Well, we made it through the week!! We had our second anniversary on June 30th and we decided to take the day off from work and head to Tulsa to visit the zoo! It really was a super fun day!

The sloth was sleeping while hanging. lol

These bats were hanging right above our heads.

The poison dart frogs in the rainforest exhibit were my favorite!!! You could have reached out and grabbed one if you wanted...then possibly died from the poison..but still, so cool.

This bird was wandering around.

The pink flamingo's reminded me of Alice in Wonderland.

My favorite animal of all time!

After the zoo, we cooled off at Jamba Juice, went to a Super Target (has a grocery section, and everything), then caught Transformers II at the Tulsa IMAX! This was Daniel's first IMAX movie and he loved it. We went to Red Robin for dinner then headed home around 8pm. It was a great anniversary.

On the Forth of July, we had almost everyone in Daniel's family and my family over for a cookout! It was a blast. We had a great time together.

Later that night we went to the Arvest Ballpark to catch the fireworks show. I have an amazing setting on my camera for taking photos of fireworks. It takes the photo over a span of a few seconds. Amazing.

Finale!!

On Sunday we had a birthday bash for my sister, Laura who turned 35 on Monday the 6th. Happy birthday sis!!!

My Favorite Show

I love the show "Wipeout"! You go through one obstacle course after another until someone is left standing to win $50,000. Awesome. Here are some awesome photos.

Baby News!

No, we're not pregnant. But my brother and his wife are!

(They realized they spelled Christmas wrong after the fact...still cute though!)

They told all of the family today! We were all holding hands and having our Sunday lunch prayer, and little did we know that when Dad said "Amen" we would look up and see a message on their shirts!! So surprising! What a cute way to tell us! Dave's wife Sarah is due December 23rd and we are all so very excited.

Today was also Father's Day! It was a good day. Dad had a great time and Dave really thought it was a special one since he is almost a daddy himself. Here are a few pictures of Dad with his gifts.

We had a blast and really enjoyed being with the whole family.

So I need some help. Does anyone know how to customize your blog a little better? For example, I wanted a background of my own, one that wasn't from the few I can choose from on here. Can you tell me how to do that? That would be great. Also, can you explain to me on how to create a list of link's to other people's blogs that will appear on my blog? That would also be great.

Ok, that's all the questions I have for now.

Quick Post

It's been a while since my last post. I apologize to all five of you who read this blog...which makes me want to address something...

Would anyone else like to follow my blog? Come on, you! You know you want to. I've recently found some friends blogs, and have added them to the blogs I follow. I just wanted a few more followers myself.

Summer has arrived, and we are enjoying every minute of it that we can. Our back yard and patio are looking fabulous, (will post a picture soon) and we have nightly popcicle dates together. Daniel loves popcicles. We talk about our day, discuss future plans for the house and our lives, tell each other the joke that is on our popcicle stick, and enjoy all the work we have put into our yard. Speaking of our yard...

We have a vegetable garden! We're growing tomatoes, jalepenos, okra, broccoli, and strawberries. So far we have enjoyed a few ripe strawberries. Two jalepenos are almost ready to be "harvested", and we've got an explosion of little green tomatoes everywhere. As far as the okra and broccoli go, well, nothing's happening with them so far except plant growth. I guess that's a good thing though. I am really looking forward to the day where I can make actual garden fresh salsa.....ahhh....OH and we have herbs too! Cilantro, garlic chives, lavendar, mint, chocolate mint, and pinnaple mint.

I will leave it at that for now. More to come later this week!

Spring? With snow?

What is up with this weather! I cannot stand it when it starts to get nice and warm and things are greening up, just so it can snow again. Grr. We had to cover our flower bed in the front because some of the plants had already started to come back and start growing. Better safe than sorry!

I've been super busy with school lately. I had my first mid term on the 20th (Biology) and I'm just glad it's over. Didn't do so well...but that's neither here nor there. (..what does that even mean?...) I took that day off because we were heading to Branson for the weekend! So I took my test at 9 am, ran home, and we were out the door by 11! We got all the way to Garfield when Daniel realized we left our tickets to Silver Dollar City at home! We were going there the next day with his entire family! So we turned around to go back home and get them. Good thing, because we got there and I found all of Daniel's clothes hanging on the closet door. He had left them and wouldn't have had any clothes in Branson!

We had a blast though. It rained all day on Saturday while we were in SDC but we still had a great time. Sunday we met my parents at the malls and shopped a while before heading home. Here are some photos of SDC!